Dear Niaz
Hey dude! Haven’t seen you since the first grade? How’s life? What did you grow up to be? Still in the country or left for somewhere else. You always talked about going way to New Zealand someday. Have you made it there? Hey, did you become a pilot? We were child back then. But had some real straight up plan for the future. Sadly, I couldn’t make into the military or become a detective. It was kind of evident, don’t you think? I was always a fat kid. Yeah was the bully in class but did not become much of a fit stud. What about you? Did you join the force anyhow? Those tiny spectacles always made you look so smart. Funny thing I wear them too. Well, bigger frames than yours. Believe me, didn’t make me any smarter. I am same old. I miss those times man. Times when we were kids. Best friends aren’t hard to come by anymore. Older I get, more complicated the word ‘friendship’ is becoming to me. You actually loose more friends than actually making any more. I seriously don’t get it. Shouldn’t older, adult people have pile of friends?
May be this is kind of getting childish. But whatever man, I think I never had a friend like you. The way we stood up for each other. Remember, getting in hustle with those 4th graders. We were tiny and outnumbered. But gave them hell, bleeding from the nose and shit! Or maybe you are thinking that I have become socially awkward as I grew up.Haha! No man, I had tons of friends after I left that localschool. Went to the big cityhigh school. You did too. Once, I went to our school, they couldn’t tell your whereabouts. Dang, we did not even have phones back then. Along the way, sadly, I lost you. Somehow, I have been losing friends ever since. The first best friend I made in school, died in the 5th grade. Heard, there was some family complications. He hung himself or something. But how could he? We know that how poorly his family treated him, often seen cruel beating marks on his back. I bet, his step dad’s doing. Then fucking Akash actually committed suicide when his first ever girlfriend broke up. Took heavy dose of sleeping pills and dreamt away to Neverland. What the hell mann?! We were 8th grade! There were decades of life ahead of us. Then right after SSC, I totally lost my trust in people, when Jon betrayed me and framed me of a scoundrel, just to win a girl! That bitch! I never even liked her much, but she had crush on me. So, Jon had to color me black in front of her.Thengod-forsaken filthy rumors about me got spread all over. I felt the looks in my classmates’ eyes when I came across them later. How could I ever trust in friendship?
Little of the remaining so called friends that I have, are very distance. It feels good when we get together, prolly annually. They are also all busy into life. It is kind of like, as you grow older, your heart gets harder. Blood gets thicker. You do not want to get hurt, or I guess scared of getting betrayed again. Stability becomes more valuable than living the life. Speaking of getting hurt. You know I was always good with ladies, right? Yeah, yeah it was just first grade. But the only girl in the class was ‘my’ girlfriend. Man, you tried so hard to win her over. I bet you found someone better than Nila already. Found, she is married now. Sadly, this ladies’ thing kind bit me in balls deep. Never thought I could get so hooked on someone. Fell in the love pool with her while in College. But when she went to visit her grandparents in the village, she drowned away in a river with my heart as well.
Not sure about being socially awkward. But my life is fucked up man. I function like a robot, as a computer program. And the last person I know, who might be alive, from whom I haven’t got apart in a bad or sadistic manner. Is you bro. The only true friend that, I had in my 1st grade. Wish I could find you again. I hate how life turned out to be. My coworkers at office call me ‘Sir. Gothic’, behind my back. Yeah, I am hella successful in status-wise, with tons of connection and FB friends. But I am alone dude, very very alone.
Your
Childhood Friend